Everything in the universe starts with a beginning, so this blog should not be any different.
Although its very cliche talking about ones own self journey in a blogging environment , there is something about wanting to share ones quests with others. It would probably be more interesting if it was a sword yielding quest, with dragons and moats; but it isn't! its my blog about the journey of a fat girl striving to let go of her issues and become a healthy girl who in turn will live a longer happier life.
For anyone that knows me really well, I've always been of the negative genre towards life and over thought much of the things I'm subjected to. Also you will know that I have had a rough time up until now, and I've definitely been struggling with getting my feet in the now of my life. Well actually I find it very hard to just relax and embrace the now.
Last year I recovered from an eating disorder I'd been battling with for a long time. There was a great strength inside me I didn't know about which helped me fight it. Now having had some time to adapt to a 'normal' approach to food without the panic and self-loathing, I'm ready to start getting my life moving again.
I have been for months felt very stuck, and having just gone though a deep bout of depression I've started having some counseling and started listening to the things I preach to my friends.
Firstly, I eat way too much as a self punishment and as of Monday I have stopped doing this. It makes me sick and it makes me miserable and fat. When I look in the mirror I don't see a fat person. I see a stranger!
I never meant to turn out unemployed, fat, depressed, unfit with bad circulation and watching TV all day. What happened to my love of Yoga and Running? Meeting up with friends, traveling and my mojo?! I mean if I'm going to be sat around depressed because I'm overwhelmed by the world then what was the point of me being here on this planet in the first place? I might as well get on and enjoy my life whilst I'm here, whilst I'm 24 and young and in the prime of my life.
So this Monday I joined Weightwatchers Online to help vamp my life up. I like the concept of weight watchers and the food choices. I've always tried dieting and it never worked but right now I feel ready to put my all into it!
I weighted myself on Monday and was shocked to find at 5"5 I weigh 15 stones and 2 pounds. That's 212 pounds or 96.1 kg!!!!
So i need to lose 5 stones, 70 pounds, 35 kg to be a healthy weight.
I really want to get fit and healthy like I was before and I really want to actually achieve his for once because I've been overweight for 11 years now and my body will eventually start to struggle with the excess weight.
I went for a run this morning which was so painful but I feel better for it so hopefully will be able to maintain it :-)
I'm going to blog as much as I can with ideas and support for those who are also doing weight watchers.
Kindly Alexis
